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| so here i am in ofallon/st. louis and its friday night and i am watching the history channel with my parents. i wont go into to detail about my night lastnight in respect for the people that was there, but i will say that a person can learn alot through hateful words, and actions. theres a girl ive met, and ive never felt this way about a girl before. its weird, i wish i knew how to handle the situation that im in with her. like i just wish i could see in the future and see if had work realy does pay off, or if staying persistene will realy break resistance. ive been making some realy good life changes latly which makes me soo happy, but at the same time its just makes me relize what i want and dont have. life is like a fire at the circus, intense. | | |
| its been over 2 years, since ive wrote here. alot has happened in the two years. a lot of bad, and a lot of good. ive graduated highschool, ive established myself as a pro, and ive moved across the country. ive broken a few heart, and had my broken as well. but here i am, 18 years old and close to being on top of the world. i am home for christmas right now, which has been a a real year since ive seen alot of kids from my highschool here in ofallon, and ts makes me sad to see, that the alot of them are doing the same thing. its seemed like years since ive been in school. its crazy to think of all the places ive been, alll the people ive met, all the girls ive talked to. all the parties ive schreded. which even with all the things ive experienced, i am still just a 18 year old kid, i still am lonley, and still feel the same i did before i left this town. like i feel as if ive learned alot more life lessons from all the things ive seen and been through, but it just shows that somethings in life you just gotta sitt through even if its mind numbing or mind blowing. its crazy to think ill be 19 soon, my last year as a teenager. ive been feeling worthless latly, so i think im gonna start writting here every day. | | |
| shits kinda been hitting the fan, i wish i wasent so consumed to myspace, i like keeping a journal. i think it helps get things off my mind. which i often have a shit ton of. im at woodward as of right now, and made the cut for dew tour so all is looking well for me. | | |
| i miss this thing, i love it but myspace is just taking over, oh well, all good things slowly die out. | | |
| well myspace is down and i hate life, after high school im nvere gettign up before the sun ever again. | | |
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